Doing science society application and chinese at the same time. SO Frigging bored that i decided to blog again.
Just finished writing a letter to tjc. A long, long love letter.
I seriously dun mind rejoining band, but the people there totally disgust me, especially the comm.
The entire frigging clique just control all the stuff going in the band=.= makes me very sick of band.
Its funny to know that even if bryan were to return to dhs and not go to poly, he most prolly won't join back band too. and to think that he was the closest to the comm, then me who is IN THE COMM, and how all the others just suck up to bryan so that he will stay.
CAN'T THEY JUST GIVE US A CHOICE? WHY MUST THEY TRY TO PERSUADE US? seriously, its just making things worse.
If they gave me and ivory a choice, we most prolly won't leave. But too late now. FOR U.
Seriously, our seniors get defamed for nothing-.- they did nth wrong, just followed their hearts and go wherever it took them. and juniors who never heard about them blamed and hated them, because they didn't know how great these seniors were, assisting us in our every step, making things less stressful for us, gave us encouragement when we needed them.
All the best to those taking A levels :D hope yall do well. :D P.S. I'll be praying for yall:D IN MY OWN WAY.
Rambling stuff on my mind out.
I am turning crazy soon.
Woke up right in the middle of a sleep sweaty during an afternoon nap.
Felt like bashing my head right in the wall today on the bus. Tormented by my own ghosts again.
Is this normal? How could it happen to me? Its not like I dun have enough sleep then like that what. I used to sleep 10 hours and i still suffered.
Maybe I am like Macbeth, going to be killed by my own pride.
If that's the case, you are the witch. You made me believe in false hope, then crushed me like asbestos, making me a disease, a terminal disease.
Twisted, like my earpiece wire, like my very bloodvessels, like my very mind.
I just hope I won't kill myself over this torment.